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3月20日 雪白的情人节---先说好了，我太懒了．．．所以让你们现在才看到．．．
14th Feb. 雪白的情人节
迷迷糊糊醒来时，就知道外面已经是白茫茫一片了，但还不知道今年的情人节竟如此的神话．
今年真是怪死了，常年从迎不来雪的沙漠地带，迎来的，已经是今年的第5场大雪了．每场雪还都带着特殊的祝福与含义．一切都像童话，一切都是雪白的：雪白的寒假第一天，雪白的平安夜，雪白的圣诞节，雪白的新年，还有这雪白的情人节．
是否今年情人们的感情要比往年更像雪一样纯洁呢？望着窗外，想自己得到了不用回答的答案．
我最好的情人节礼物．
今年是我第一个情人节，这么有气氛．
我最好的礼物呢，就是与高老师见面聊天了吧．鉴于下雪，今天的我们没有学上．经过一番简短的与Host family和高老师的介绍，我与高老师就找下一家“方家轩”坐下，吃饭，谈天说地．这顿饭吃得我们大概有4个多小时，对于我这永远也停不下的嘴，说得比吃得多得多．
从我在纸上列下的小提纲，扯到了八千里外，不是问题．但居然一个小小的故事把高老师给逗哭了．
[我直到美国这边以后才见识到了Marching Band，并且深深地爱上了Band生活．其实我加入Marching也是很有一段故事呢．．．
我是临开学前才到这边的，当时也根本不知道Marching Band的学生们有一个"Summer camp"，专门训练队形，marching skill之类的．而且在那个时候他们已经定下了学生们的人数，位置，并已经设计好了整个Marching show的变换模型。对于开学第一天才到这个集体的我，固然没有位置．也许是好不甘心吧，也许是对音乐的喜欢吧，我凭着超强的记忆力在第一个星期里就把整个三大乐章的曲子很连贯漂亮地演奏出来了．不过我站在side line上面，没有加入他们那有趣的队形变幻中．
后来Mr. Blakey和Mr.Damas把我叫去，他们说我长笛吹得好，甚至好过一些在队形里面的学生．他们想打算把我加入到Marching的队形里面，我谢过他们．整晚我好像都没有睡着，很兴奋地一遍遍想着从他们口中得到的肯定，从来没有自信的自己刚刚好地找到了一些舒服的感觉．
我很高兴．
在Flute section里面有个越南的女孩叫做Tien，她是我在这边最好的朋友之一．对这个“什么都没见过，什么都不懂”的我她更是照顾有加．因为我从没有过marching skill的训练，所以对于marching的技巧很弱，Tien会用课余的时间里带着我特殊练习，强化．把我终于培养成了“见过，也懂得很多”的女孩了．她人幽默，大方，个性像捷。我打心底里面喜欢她．
在后来的一个星期里面，我怎么也没想到事情会来的这快。Tien告诉我说要带我在某一个weekday之中利用课后教我走她的spot，我很不解，因为每个人都有固定的spot，我学她的干什么？难道她要我联系学习她的路线作为marching技巧的训练吗？但那一天，我什么也没说．
那个星期三，在我记忆了她的整个路线之后，终于忍不住问了她一个为什么，她的回答一直存在了我的脑海，忘不掉，
＂Oh,Jenny.I know you are a very great flute player,much better than me.So I am teaching you how to do my spot that you can be in the marching show. ＂
她的语速好快，我当时的心情也好是复杂．感动，心酸，还是被触及到我内心最为敏感的部位？我连想都没有想地就告诉她说她是我这边最好的朋友，我绝对不会去占她的位置，我宁愿就甘心站在side line上面演奏，也不会去抢占Tien的spot．
当晚，自己在房间里面凝视窗外好久．
为了她的话流泪了．
第二天的我在训练后跑到乐队老师的办公室里面问他们是不是真的要准备把我放到marching show里面，他们说是．我跟他们讲我原以为他们会为了我在整个field上面加上一个属于我的位置，后来才从Tien口中知道不可能．我说如果他们准备要把Tien的位置给我，我是绝对不接受的，我还是选择去上边上演奏．因为她像是我的老师一样一件件教会我在乐队里需要的技能，事事照顾我，等等．
再后来，Mr.Blakey又做了个测试，结果我和她都拿了５分，我们好开心！因为最终我还是加入了marching．位置原是一个吹黑管的女孩．我也曾跟老师讲过自己不愿意去占别人的位子，讲过我的心情，Tien的话让我感动，但Mr.Blakey的话更让我铭记在心，
＂Jenny,remember you are here in America.No one will gain anything when they did nothing.You gained what you've been hard worked.This is our American way.＂
自己听完后也是很有感触．
是啊，身在异国，就要入乡随俗地接受异国人的做法．很像中国的老话，能者居上，收获不会辜负真正努力的人．生活是处处充满竞争与挑战的，不同的国家，同一个世界．
故事继续着，后来我们的每一场比赛我都做出了自己最好的表现．萨克斯声部的声部长告诉我说，
＂Jenny you have a good marching skill!＂
我听了别提有多感动．是呀，我努力了，就收获了！一切的一切只有经历过，才会感受．］
故事总算有了个像点儿样的结尾，看着高老师湿湿的眼眶，赶紧拿了纸巾递给他．
这下子坏了，怎么可以把坚强的高老师讲哭了呢？我是快乐小＂菁＂灵，绝对不可以再让任何人流泪了，我的故事还要继续，一定要让高老师，爸爸妈妈，还有关心我的人们为我而自豪，欣喜，骄傲．．．
 冰凝3月8日 Since you've been gone How could you hurt me by such the most sadest way?!
You promised me, you said that to my face.You've ever promised!
I remember all the time we spent together.Since you were welcoming my arrival here; Since you were taking me go hiking; Since you were teaching me how to be strong, I know, our lives are so easy to be destroyed; Since the first time you were showing me how to make that wood box for my father's birthday,although we never couldn't finish it; Since you were watching the Chinese TV shows with me; Since every rime you were telling me that "Don't worry, it's OK." because of my crying; Since you've been gone...
I cried.
A lot.
Again.
Can you imagine how strong and how brave for me to cry? All the tears are for honoring you. Memorizing all of your kindness,all of your happiness and all of your braveries, learning to be more reality.The things that I can not help at all,just let it go. No,no,no,I can not just give up.I can not.
You must be looking at me everytime,your sprit and love sent you all the way to the best place you want to go.You must live right behind me,always.Because I am sure that you can hear from me,all the time.It's so hard to say goodbye,I know we won't.All the things you did for me, I won't forget, I promise. Please smile at me again, just one more time.
I know you didn't promise me anything because you know how serious you want to promise to yourself also! This is the only thing makes us so hard to promise,isn't it?
She said you may be tired about this world,and for now you are totally free. Nothing will hurt you,never.
She said don't feel bad, the reason why is I did something for you,bringing you a bright spot that making you happy. Actually I was meaning something to you.
She said this is life, being hurt, crying aloud, and going back again.Even though we are moving on, those unforgetable things will be deeply planting in our mind,never being throw away.
She said you will become a shining star among the huge sky, so that we can start praying for you before I go to sleep.
God will bless you.
Because you have all the kindness and you are such a great father.
Because the people who know you, even just a little bit, they love you, as I do.
Because how brave you are to face this damn cancer.
I learned so much things from you, even though the time belongs to us was not long.
I'll just keep my peaceful life, continue my happy life, and remember my life with you.
I miss you.
Little message.
Just for you, my dear James Fleming.
You won't forget me,will you... |
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